Everything is Perfect

Heard about the saying : "Nothing and Nobody is perfect"? It might be true, but that is not the attitude to have in life.

Why think nothing is perfect? For me, my life is perfect. Everything is perfect. Everything has advantages and disadvantages. After you've made the choice, if you have the power to forget the disadvantages and just see the advantages, then baby, its nirvana.

I can't follow schedules - So what? Its so much fun being impulsive and ACTUALLY doing what you want. Okay, my grades drop by a 4 points. But I lived life the way I wanted to and did not pull down myself into not being me.

I have a very bad health - Running around all the time is pretty cliche. Sometimes, sitting in the bed and wathcing TV for 10 hours is a good chiller. My nose leaks, but then I get to bunk school!

I can't talk on the phone and go out with my girlfriend anymore - Whats there? It was getting a bit obsessive anyway. And I learnt to value my time with her more and feels 100 times better when I see her! Its actually better this way. Can concentrate on my prioirities.

My ipod has only 4 GB capacity - I can't listen to more than 1000 songs in one go anyway! I can always come back and add n delete stuff. As a matter of fact, my collection has become so much more organized as I have search and browse.

A point that has been brought to my notice is that this attitude might quash all desire and greediness which drives us to achieve stuff. I completely agree with that. So, I guess we need to be careful about this mindset. But I have gone ahead with this mentality and I have not lost the desire to get into Stanford!

Life is perfect. Everything around you is perfect. You are perfect. Love yourself, everything around you and life. Maybe doing this is an illusion. Maybe I need a reality check. Or maybe I don't. Maybe I should be left the way I am. Maybe happiness is just an illusion for me. But then atleast I would die happy. Even though happiness was an illusion, atleast I could feel it. Illusion or not, I consider happiness the touchstone of success in one's life.

Maybe I am a retard who is talking shit.

Or maybe I just formulated the most wonderful strategy of living life.

Nirvana..

PS - Guess what? I got bored of thinking like this.. Sometimes jealousy and craving and dissatisfaction gets things more spicier. I was tired of having a perfect relationship with my girlfriend.. I kinda picked up a fight! haha! So... I guess this is a useful tool in times of depression or neutrality only...

Knowledge Kills

Testing

I was trying to think about what we have achieved by getting educated and gaining worldly knowledge... It was shocking.

Ignorance is bliss...

The more you learn and the more you know, the more you realize. The more you analyze. The more you think. Thinking a lot, an obsession, can prove to be one of the worst diseases.

Back to knowledge, I would say realization, though beautiful, is not always pleasant. The more you realize, the less prone you are to happiness. This might get a little confusing. All readers who wanna try and pounce on my blog (typical sarjan-giri) will find an opportunity in the previous line. But even I'm a little confused about it. But I can justify it:

Right now, if your dad beat you up badly... Really badly... It would have disastrous impacts on you. You would probably cry a lot, get into a depression and in worst cases, might lose out on life coz everything appears very dull. Why does all this happen? Because you KNOW it is 'wrong' for you father to do that. You KNOW you can fight against it. You KNOW you have self-dignity which you must protect and preserve.
What if the same thing happened to a person in the slums? By the way, it happens with almost every one of them! They don't get depressed... They don't sit and cry for days . Next day, you'll see them back to their small little playground with their tops spinning with the same vigor. WHY? Because they don't KNOW that what happened to them is 'wrong' and not justifiable. They don't know that they have the right to fight back. They live with it, forgetting very easily. But us highly educated people will never forget such a thing... It will remain in our memory as a scar where our rights were abused and our dignity was harmed.

MM says the poor guy don't feel depressed coz it happens to him evgeryday. Well... What if it happened to one of us everyday? We'd probably run away, keep crying all day or kill ourselves. The reasons for this are the same... Coz we KNOW...


What is YOUR aim in life? Some might say to be successful and some might say to be satisfied and happy. For me, success is when I am happy. But when you learn and realize more, you are less prone to happiness. Now I come to question why we want to know, why we want to realize...

Ignorance is bliss...


(Of course, some people might argue that they prefer to be in the present educated state rather living an ignorant life. Same here. But consider the fact that you can never know how it is to be ignorant coz u aren't (and vice-versa of course). Maybe it is better...)

Death - The Orgasm of Life

I was just wondering... We always celebrate the end of everything - may it be schooling, graduation, education. We always celebrate it. Even when someone ends their carreer, there is always a party, to celebrate the past.

What happens when someone ends his life? Why isn't it a happy occasion?

It is not so because of selfish reasons, - we only think about the void that is created in our own life rather than celebrating the life that has just ended.

Of course, when someone dies, everyone will and should shed a few tears as they will miss them, - this sure does depict love, but once we are 'over' the sorrow caused by missing someone, we should think about celebrating the life of that person.

Death is, and has always been a very touchy issue. It scares everyone and thats why people don't dare to celebrate it. And if someone does dare to celebrate it, he will be considered a madman.

Why did I write this shit?

We can never find out what happens after dying till we die. So till I die, I'd rather believe in this, which makes me celebrate and not mourn the death of people than mourning death of dear ones which seems to be the trend(sorry for that word!).

God

I really dont know if its just coz of the good and soothing music thats on or its really what i feel deep down. I think the latter is a better possibility.

I always tend to challenge the 'normal' ideas and counter them with logical reasoning... Thats too much of a show and attention grabbing stunt actually. But then it definitely has developed my mind...

But today, I am going to appreciate an idea... The idea of GOD.

I must say, its beautiful... Very beautiful. A genius idea. Someone, whom you can talk to. Someone, you can address when you dont have anyone else to address! I don't think i should go on and describe it, we all know what i am talking about.

But, it has caused a lot of harm, we are witness to that. The idea of god has killed many and swayed many.

I think the idea will be ideal when people realise :

We are not god's creation, God is our creation.

(Motivation : Varoon... thanx a lot dude... and yeah, Jharna too, thanx for making me see god the way you do...)

The Karma Theory

"As you sow so shall you reap", used to make the most sense to me. Then I came across this Karma theory which is incorporated in Jainism, Buddhism as well as Hinduism. According to it, you will suffer for all the 'wrong' things you do in your next birth. It made a lot of sense in the beginning as I was all confused about what is the final destiny of all of us, etc. But then, I started to think it was foolish....

Why should someone suffer for something he has done in his last birth when he doesn’t even know what his name was in his last birth! You aren’t connected in ANY way to your last life, then why the HELL suffer for it! It doesn't make sense naa?

Since I am talking about the Karma theory, let me tell you that it is the very reason behind all the terrorism today. It is because of this weird theory that some of the people have got things like Jihad in their minds and are willing to die, causing a lot of destruction, because they think they are destined to do so… To save their own religion. Religion are supposed to be the driving force in people that makes them do only good and nothing bad but it has become the cause of most of the wars fought in the last two millenniums.

What had begun as a force to make people do 'right' things had become something that makes people kill... And even if it was made to make us do the 'right' things, the intention behind it is good ofcourse, but the method of inculcating it according to me is not good. The karma theory tries to create some kind of fear in our mins so thta we do right things. I have never believed in inducing fear to get things done... Maybe our 'gods' believed in it!

The Natural Theory

'Making a point', - its been only 16 years of life and I am already tired of making a point. I mean, when is there a point? There is no point.

What's the point? What's the point in life? God knows!

God? Whats that?

Something 'supernatural'... Hold on, did someone say 'super' - natural? (No you fool, you said it yourself).

Why is there a super before natural? Because its above nature is it? Its greater than nature...

Why not nature? Isn't nature a power in itself? Have you ever been able to understand nature?

Nature is the power behind everything. In other words, Nature is the god.

Yeah, I know I am breaking millions of Hindu hearts. They pictures something else as god, something very different from 'nature'. They pictured something on a tiger, something with a black tongue sticking out. Alright, lets not get into that...

We humans think we rule the world. We humans think we need to take care of nature. Nature is my god. And I don't think you could ever think of taking care of god, would you? God(Nature) takes care of us. Today, Nature for us is everything... One bloody wave and we're a million less. Nature is our mother. And nature has its way of balancing itself. Don't you think we are capable to disturb that balance.

"Favourable variations will tend to be preserved and unfavourable ones destroyed", asserted Charles Darwin, aapdo pakko guru...

Today, tigers are about to get extinct, and we, like fools think that its gonna disturb the ecology. According to Charles, in his Theory of The Survival of the Fittest, the species which cannot adapt to the environment, will be eradicated. Thats exactly what is happening. The tigers and lions are not adept to live in today's world and they need to get extinct to pave the way for better equipped species. And look at us trying to save the very last of them. That does serve a purpose, a very selfish one, - wildlife revenue.

Look at the irony. We are trying to save the fucking tigers to ensure tourism in India, and NOT to balance the ecology. And what you saw, was so much more different. Nature demands that the tigers be extinct, and we won't let that happen.

Literature? What hypocrisy!

The last thing I want to do is to offend anyone, so just consider ths a point of view...
What is literature? - creative writing of recognized artistic value.

That is what it is. Thats it. It is something that you read once, appreciate, and then forget. We can compare it to paintings. Thats what it is.

OR literature can be used as a medium to express yourself. Let us consider this point of view. You are expressing your opinion. Then why can't you do it the way I am just doing? But no, you have to put in the words that no normal person will understand. You just have to make me open the dictionary...Why? The 'next' generation is mixing up the 2 ideas of literature. They are trying to express an opinion but with weird non-comprehendible language. Thats not the way it should be, guys!. If I want to understand someone's opinion I'd want to do it quickly. So make it efficient!

I am a man of science. Everything should appeal to rational thought. This doesn't. Or if you think it does, then you can definitely make me understand. Send in your comments...

A confused 15 year old

I started writing when I was 15, in the 9th standard. Ankita, my then girlfriend had inspired me to write. This was my first ever piece. My thoughts have changed since then but I wanna publish this too... I find it interesting even now...

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Is anyone listening? Does anyone care? Do we even matter?

One by one such questions haunted my mind on my fifteenth birthday. I am fed up of living such an ignorant life – a life I do not even know why I am living……….

We are born on this Earth to suffer............

If not, then why do we see so much unhappiness, so much sorrow?

Can't there be a world full of happiness?

A world that has no sorrow, no tears, no repentance, no suffering.

It baffles me to know that even if we had such a world, we wouldn’t be satisfied. Confused? Same here. But it is really funny to know that there something called ‘empty splendour’ and ‘shadowless bliss’ which tells us that we wouldn’t be satisfied even if we lead the most happy life full of material pleasures. We would be wanting sorrow and vengeance to bring some spice into our life. It really is funny, the human mind.

If there was God, if there was somebody divine and supreme, wouldn't there have been happiness and joy everywhere? Wouldn't there be no sorrow, no suffering and no tears? Things do not exist merely because they have been defined to do so. We know a lot about the definition of Santa Claus -- what he looks like, what he does, where he lives, what his reindeer are called, and so on. But that still doesn't mean that Santa exists. In one line – if God was real then wouldn’t he be doing something? Doing something about the terror and sorrow that has spread in this world?

But “ right now; somewhere, a child is crying herself to sleep. A few miles away,- a little boy struggles to fight the forces of tyranny and oppression that hound him. Next door, someone is dying. “

We are bombarded today about how there should be equality everywhere and there should not be distinction on any category… But think for a minute…If there is someone really supreme and ultimate, isn’t he being the one who is causing all the distinction. Isn’t he being the biggest dimwit racist, the only reason behind all these kind of inequalities? Why then are some talented and some not? Some intelligent and some not? Some lucky and some not? Why then am I born into a well-off family with all the luxuries of life, with so many opportunities around me, with so many options when there are millions born into families that can’t even afford to feed them? Is it their fault that they are born into such a family? What have they done to suffer so much? They will never even know what a pizza tastes like… Never experience luxury…They aren’t even given the freedom of thought, forget that of speech and expression ! They can’t have an ambition, like I have, to conquer the business world one day and to be the master mind business tycoon roaming around in flashy Limos…

If you are thinking about the Karma theory as the reason for their suffering then please rethink it. Why should someone suffer for something he has done in his last birth when he doesn’t even know what his name was in his last birth! You aren’t connected in ANY way to your last life, then why the HELL suffer for it! If it is so, then I have nothing more to say…

Since I am talking about the Karma theory, let me tell you that it is the VERY reason behind all the terrorism today. It is because of this weird theory that some of the people have got things like Jihad in their minds and are willing to die, causing a lot of destruction, because they think they are destined to do so… To save their own religion. Religion are supposed to be the driving force in people that makes them do only good and nothing bad but it has become the cause of MOST of the wars fought in the last two millenniums. Talk about false ideals…

Life :

We are given life on this Earth to suffer. Life is nothing but a curse not only to mankind but even to the small insects which get crushed under our shoes every odd second.

It is what we make out of our lives that matters……..

Or is it?????

How are we to decide? Are we supposed to fulfill some kind of destiny on Earth? If yes, then what is it? How are we going to know why we are born and why we have to die one certain day? How are we to know why we have to go through moments of joy and moments of suffering? The world might be as well marching into false ideals but then how can we know?

Why should we live a life? Are we ever going to know the answers to this?

Many great people have spent there lives in great austerity setting an example for the people but is it worth it? Renouncing the world, giving up everything you have, getting rid of materialism just in the hope that we will be promoted to a state of eternal peace or moksha. They say that you shouldn’t have any desires, only then will you NOT suffer, forgetting themselves that they are living on the greatest desire of all – to attain salvation! It sounds foolish doesn’t it?

What is happiness? How do you feel happy? Am I leading a happy life? Am I happier with my friends and relations or when I am alone and thinking about how to lead life. I wish I had the courage enough to do something new and different from what a normal person would do and keep on experimenting with my life so that I able to answer these questions.

The lady next door is praying to god. Why? I believe that people just pray to god because they are scared of not being loyal to someone more supreme. What do you get by praying to god, asking for things and complaining or whining about something. Maybe people feel that someone is there to listen to them. Going to temples to attain peace and inner calmness, I believe, is totally psychological. Everybody comes to the temple with peaceful purposes and when you see so many people around you sitting peacefully, you are sure to feel like them. The smell is always soothing and the sound of the bell is calming. Hence you attain peace. I respect people’s faith. But then, why the hell do these people make it a point to go to the temple everyday. They get it down in their schedule. Does it help? I’ve never tried it, I think it’s a waste of time. But if I was in a position to tell you that it really works then surely I too would be going there.

I can go on and on about this but I know I have to give up. I can only hope these questions are answered some day. I can only hope that people start pondering on these questions so that they can realize that they are living life in complete ignorance and then and only then will they go hunting for the answers. In these 15 years of life I have learnt one thing for sure and that is that life goes on…And that is exactly what is going to happen to me. My life will go on and probably none of these questions will be answered. I will live my life like any person does – not believing in himself and following the ignorant masses, because we do not have the courage to do something new. I will lie on my deathbed in a few decades thinking how wonderfully I have wasted my life and foolishly I have played this confusing, incomprehensible game. But for now I am nothing but a confused fifteen year old.